My desire is to be everything you need me to be.

My goal is to be whatever you desired me to be.

I am not saying I will reach those goals but I will try.

Before I even attempt to, I realized I needed to get ready.

I needed to be alone.

There was a time I was hurt; I needed to heal.

There was a time where I wanted to play; I needed to get serious.

The way I hid my pain was in the games I played.

I can only imagine the pain I would have caused you if you were one of those I played with.

Not to let every woman off the hook.

There were those who played games with me and put me further in debt to my healing.

I needed to detox and focus on me and what I did.

The sad part is that when I played, I was ignorant to the fact that although I really wanted to get serious, my pain wouldn’t let me.

There was a time where I had distractions in my life that weren’t conducive to a successful partnership.

I had to work on me.

There were loose ends that were holding on to their false hopes, did things to hinder my progress and I allowed them.

There were times where I felt insufficient which resulted in dangerous self-preservation.

Self-preservation that prevented me from being “available” and hard to read.

I was good at not showing face.

I looked at my flaws as weapons or shields to attack others with.

I didn’t want to be vulnerable.

Who you are, my time to recover, and self-discovery prepared my readiness.

I designed and developed a Kingdom.

My Kingdom ready for a Queen.

I had to create my Kingdom prior to crowning you as my Queen.

I wanted you to be in awe when I placed that crown on your head.

I wanted you to experience the results of my hard work.

I wanted to demonstrate and reference evidence of what I built that was great and sustainable.

These examples will be a point of reference for you to know that I can and will apply the same work ethic to keeping you happy and loved.

Let’s build on this foundation.

Bring your Crown to my Kingdom, switch it out, and add some jewels that we will choose together.

I realize you were a Queen before we met!

I just want to make you my personal Queen without diminishing your accomplishments.

I apologize if I made you wait long and I appreciate your patience.

Your patience was evident without push or force that would normally push and force me to walk away from you.

Your patience was my water as I traveled across a desert of flaws.

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