I have been asked what is my fantasy when it comes to sexual relations.

When it comes to sex; what have I never done.

What positions?

What places I have never indulged?

How many partners at a time?

What is beyond my wildest imagination?

If I could be with anyone, who would I choose?

What is off limits?

What are my desires?

What type of music would I play while participating?

Have I had any complaints?

Have I made someone cry during a sexual encounter?

The questions came and I didn’t know how to answer them genuinely.

I felt uncomfortable answering them, not because I was in doubt, not because they may or may not have happened but because something was missing.

Not being aligned with my ultimate fantasy is what was missing.

My ultimate fantasy remained the same.

For answers to be answered by my wife.

It was to start my connection of souls, sexually, with my wife.

It started with saying I do!

Then on the honeymoon being totally free.

Free from guilt.

Free from wondering is she the one.

Free from releasing my efforts to embrace someone who may not be my forever.

Scared that my performance made more sense and held more weight than our covenant.

I wanted to create love, make love, and live in it without doubts of tomorrow’s dislikes.

Dislikes that create, make, live in a goodbye that could be so easily said.

I want to look in your eyes during each love-making moment and soul-tie even tighter.

A knot that could never be untied.

My fantasy starts with “I do”.

My fantasy is to travel to an exotic island be greeted with welcome Mr. and Mrs., here is your room.

My fantasy is to hear someone say “You have a beautiful wife”.

My fantasy is to introduce you in this exact way “This is my wife”.

My fantasy is to wake up one day, have an awe moment of “I’m married”.

My fantasy is to not be the only “not married” in a circle of my close friends.

My fantasy is to get married for all the right reasons.

My fantasy is us working on our issues despite the difficulty.

My fantasy is not giving up on each other.

My fantasy is for you to be able to channel your inner Shug Avery and say “I’s married now” and mean it.

My fantasy is to have the approval of God in line with what making love was made for.

My fantasy is for my wife to have all the answers.

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